24th January 2008 16:47hi girls & boys(if any of ye use this) I have a real big problem, I'm engaged for the last few four months to my boyfriend of five years after he had asked me on several occasions I said yes because he told me it was either now or never and I didn't want to loose him. I really like him alot & we get on great, but I've never really felt much attraction to him, I met him at a really hard time of my life, my close friend had passed away. to cut the story short my ex has been in my life the whole time at the start I cut him out of my life as he had hurt me, we never had a really solid realtionship,He hasn't gone out with anyone for the last two years apart from the odd one night stand, previous to this he went out with a girl for a year, not sure why the relationship finished.. now he wants me to get back with him or at least give him a chance this had been going on with the last two years and he still hasn't given up, I have often told him that I feel this is all wrong as I text him behind my H2b's back.. and I have met him on occasions maybe once every three months.. I have been with him before I got engaged.. he has told me he love's me. My H2b has asked me on loads of occasions whether he is still in contact & last week I told him that yes I had spoken to him and that basically I do still have a lot of feelings for him but that I have made my decision.. but now I don't know what to do!!! I feel like the most selfish B*tch in the world at the moment.. I don't want to hurt my h2b, but I can't seem to give up my ex at the same time..