11th February 2019 02:02A long time ago, my then boyfriend cheated on me online. There were extenuating circumstances in that i was caring for a sick relative at the time and wasn't really present in the relationship. He apologised profusely, said he loved me i forgave him and we moved on. We're married a few years now and when our third child was six weeks old i discovered him at it again. Basically caught him sexting another woman through an online chat site in bed in the middle of the night: he didn't realise i could see so i looked online and found his profile and confronted him. During our 'discussions' about what he had done he volunteered that he had done it again just after we got married too. I'm at a loss. I love him. We have three beautiful children together. He says he loves me now and has been very affectionate with me but in a fatherly way (kissing me on the forehead, sitting next to me on the couch...). We havnt had sex since our second child was born, his choice, apart from trying to conceive our third. It was horrible to be honest as he had told me after our second child that he no longer found me attractive or loved me like he used to and completely sexually rejected me so the sex for our third child was pure autopilot for both of us because i wanted another baby. I just want opinions because i dont know if I'm making too much out of the online cheating but its the breech of trust. I mean, he took a half naked pic of himself for his dating profile in our bedroom and used a wedding pic that he looked good in too. I love him. I know I'm a fool. He says he loves me too. If it wasn't for the kids i would have left when i caught him. I want to fix it and he says he does too but i cant imagine ever trusting him again or ever wanting to have him touch me kiss me have sex with him... It makes my skin crawl thinking about it and what he and this woman were messaging each other while i was pregnant and we had a new baby... I'm just lost.