11th June 2008 16:32
Hi everyone,
I'm in tears reading this I can relate so much to everyone's posts. I moved to another county about a year and a half ago, I found it very hard to settle in. His mother was up the road and kept checking up on us, and always made me feel that I shouldn't be going out with her son. we lived in a run down house cold and damp to save money so we could buy our own house, eventually I started to get to know people who lived across the road and down the road. But we moved then to our new house which is over 20 mins away outside a village, our neighbours in our rented house were alot older than me but still it was nice to fit in. Now i don't know our neighbours on either side, one lot are very nosy and stand outside looking in, I did at the start when we moved here try to get to know them be friendly gave a wave anytime we passed but got nothing back. Both sets of neighbours are alot older than us I'm 26, H2B works in the local town and knows alot of people he is very shy and quiet and keeps to himself. I work over an hours drive away and have friends at work and go on the odd night out with them but always have to leave early as he is picking me up or else i'm driving and don't want to be driving really late at night home. so these nights out are getting less and less. I love our house so much and i love where it is situated but really feel like an outsider even with his family who all live around the area. I don't even know whats going on in the local village as there is never any adverts up or anything. I do try to fit in with H2B friends girlfriends but I don't have anything in common with any of them and they never ask me to go out with them or their friends. We don't go out much as we don't have much money with wedding etc I would just love if i knew at least one person that i could call around to and have a chat to. My best friends are miles away and we chat on the phone alot but we aren't as close anymore. H2B tries and has started to bring me with him where ever he goes so i can meet people but I have forgotten how to make friends at this stage. We are also happy enough to be in each others company, and we have 2 dogs that we just adore and I do walk them but we live in the middle of nowhere so not many people around.
If anyone knows how i can dig myself out of this please let me know!